Welcome back!!

Its been ages!

Hi all! Its been so so long since my last blog! Now its time for me to come back and stain some dye in my blog post! :D Been busy recently doing my Final Year Project and preparing the proposal by reading piles of articles and journals. Frankly speaking, its really tough for me to digest and understand well what exactly the articles are trying to tell. Probably this is how final year tasted like in Uni. Besides, since I'm still serving the Boys' Brigade (3rd Kuching) and yet also occupy with all those admin stuffs. Al their names listing, dorm listing, squads listing *urghhhhh! i really can't do this without Jesus!!*

At the same time, I can feel that my heart is getting weaker each day. The pain, the suffering, the feeling is getting more intense than before. I was very active and good in stamina when comes to sports but now easily feel tired and sometimes dizziness strikes. When I went to Kuching Food Festival last week, I nearly faint cause of suffocating and HARDLY breathe! *i was like no, i can't close my eye and faint, my parents are here...* This makes me feel like my heart is getting worsen each day. I can only pray for it cause I completely believe in the power of prayers when we pray with FAITH! I believe in God's plan :)

Lastly, one thing - the answer that I'm waiting for years has been answered 80% in total. Its good that you can find someone that you like and admire. I sincerely pray that you will success one day no matter what are the outcome. You asked me not to give up, and I said Okay. Maybe you mean not to give up praying but I interpreted it the other way round which mean not to give you up. Surely I know not to give up praying in anything I do, but I've been holding and praying for us since form 5 til now. 5 years. I always tell God that if me and you are meant to be together, show us the way, guide us and lead us so that we will not missed each other in this entire life but to treasure each other well. I know I made a mistake when I was in matriculation that time, ignoring you for 2 weeks cause busy with academic stuffs *I'm selfish :( *. Each time I recall back this incident, it makes me feel really really sad and regret. If I did not ignore you that time, I guess we'll be world's happiest soul mate by now :) My friends said I'm just too naive to love a person for so long and yet did not have a good ending but for me, I called it true love - Yes, true love. I need a partner like you so that I can grow strong in Faith in Christ and I need you to motivate me for that. Til the day you and him are together, I will step out and jotted it as 100% confirmation answer :)